A Journey of Remembering and Reclaiming…
I stand naked under the midnight galaxy of star constellations and gaze upward at the crescent moon … and……I marvel at the vastness of the Cosmos and begin to ponder….Where did I come from? Who am I in the matrix of space and time?
Under this skin of stardust particles lie the bones of my ancestors and DNA of those generations before me……all sewn together in time to create this body temple.
So I ask…What is my Truth? What is mine to carry..reclaim and embrace and What is not mine that I need to release and surrender?
So I return to that which I know. I stand on the body of Mother Earth…centered in my own medicine hoop and I look to the East. I remember the ember of my Heart Fire and its spark which was ignited all those years ago. I enter into the Cave of Forgotten Dreams and I recall the innocent beautiful little being known as Mary. Her Spirit so full of wonder, joy and curiosity only to be dampened by the events of abandonment, betrayal, neglect and abuse. Now she is reclaiming that wonder and active imagination and once again dancing and singing. Tossing away the shame and untruths that plagued her tender heart, now replaced instead with free abandonment, love of beauty and thirst for life.
Now, I bath in the moonlight, dance under the sun, swim in the oceans and walk among the flowers. Glitter SPARKLES in my hair and there is a wildness in my heart walk, a call to adventure and a curiosity of what the world has to offer and a desire to experience this one full life.
Now I reconnect to the Precious Divine Mother who created me…Who carried me through these journeys of heartbreak and triumphs ..Sorrows and Joys…I reclaim my intimacy with the Lady of my Heart.
Through the echos of time, a great awakening has been happening…and today I reclaim my authentic Truth and Beauty. I release the need to people please or seek others approval of who I am to be in this Life time. Instead, I listen to Source for that guidance.
Traveling the Wheel of Life, I turn to the south and I embrace those chosen family…friends..lovers…Beloveds who touch my heart and I listen to who I am to serve. I feel that red thread of connection around my wrist and I know what I am here to cause and create and look forward to meeting all those I am meant to meet.
I make medicine from the Colorful Scars of past struggles and stand tall on the bones of my ancestors roots deep in Mother Earth….white hair flowing, I remember the Truth of the Wisdom with in me. I reclaim my sovereign Self.
As I gather up myself and proclaim my “body of work”, I now embody the “Tree of Life” within me….always growing and changing with the seasons. I am no longer bound to rules and demands which diminish me, instead I walk a path of Beauty, Truth and Spirit.
In the West, I gather together the parts of me which need purification and cleansing and stand under the waterfalls of Holy Sacred Water. Knowing it is the Source of all Life. I ask that it wash away any shame, guilt, sorrow and pain and instead allow it to renew my soul to live in Right relationship with my calling and with Creator as my guide.
No longer will structures, institutions, people or rules that attempt to restrict or silence have power over me. In developing better boundaries, I will not be violated again. A Holy well exist with in me now…one that carries the power to forgive, to show compassion towards others and to find reconciliation whenever possible. My heart is broken open enough to allow the Light in and is capable of fierce loving.
In those places and to those people, where I have done harm , I ask for the forgiveness of Spirit and the ability to make amends and to make bridges of reconciliation if possible.
I rise from the Phoenix ashes of broken dreams and promises and reclaim my Life! I recommit to nurture my temple body and embrace it with deep caring and compassion. I recommit to tending the Sacred Fire of my Heart while swimming in the Holy waters of Creation, breathing in and creating Sacred intention in all my actions. I reclaim my place in the family of earth beings and celebrate with all my relations. I am a daughter of the earth, granddaughter of the sea, sister of the stars and a Child of the Divine Mother.
I reclaim my relationship with She who created me….She who always loves me and I commit to living as awake and consciously as I can. Love is the Way!
Thank you to all the teachers, guides, Spirits, holy Ones, who have taught me…thank you, thank you.
To all those who walk with me….beside me…above me… below me…before me…within me…I say thank you…Gracias…Pilamaya.. I say THANK YOU, OLIVIA MARIE
